An Interview with Philosopher/Author/Alcoholic Clancy Martin

Clancy Martin is the Chair of the Philosophy Department at University of Missouri.  He is an expert in Nietzsche.  His PhD dissertation was on the philosophy of lying.  He is also a best selling author of How to Sell (2009), a semi-autobiographical account of a young man in the jewelry business who engages in various unethical methods to make money.   “First lie to yourself about what grade the diamond is; then you can sincerely tell your customer ‘the truth’ about what it’s worth.”  He drinks to quash the feelings of guilt caused by his peccadilloes.  And he (the author) is also an alcoholic. Continue reading An Interview with Philosopher/Author/Alcoholic Clancy Martin

A conversation with author/alcoholic Paul Carr

Paul Carr is a young writer and adventurer.  He is also an alcoholic.  He decided to get sober a few years ago.  However, he didn’t exactly like what AA had to offer, so he wrote his own 12 steps.  They are outlined in this Wall Street Journal article:

AddictionMyth sat down with Mr. Carr for this intimate interview conducted by email. Continue reading A conversation with author/alcoholic Paul Carr

A conversation with David Sheff, author of “Clean”

David Sheff is the best selling author of Beautiful Boy, the account of his son’s struggle with drug addiction.  Recently, he came out with a new book, Clean: Overcoming Addiction and Ending America’s Greatest Tragedy, which describes the state of the treatment industry, and what a person has to do to get clean from drugs.

AddictionMyth recently sat down with Mr. Sheff for an intimate interview via email. Continue reading A conversation with David Sheff, author of “Clean”

AA is getting really boring

I feel like AA has been getting really boring lately.  The speaker’s stories are not as salacious as they used to be.  I think it’s because they are leaving out juicy details to avoid glamorizing their hedonistic lifestyle, or to avoid mention of criminality.  Certainly, it protects AA’s reputation as a do-gooders society (if they mentioned these things they would easily be identified as the scoundrels that they are).  But it makes the meetings boring.  The whole point of AA is to drink as cover for mischief.  So what’s the point without the mischief? Continue reading AA is getting really boring

Lock me up, please!

Several people at tonight’s meeting in West Hollywood expressed their secret desire to be locked up, either in jail or in a padded room in a mental hospital.  Our speaker tonight was a very handsome young man (late 30’s but looked much younger, and very LA style) who spoke of his drug and alcohol career in the mid-west before moving here.  He mentioned a desire, during the depths of his drug use, to be sent to jail where all his needs would be taken care of.  During the shares, several people commented on that, and described their own desire to be put away.  One young man was despondent about his life, and his job as a telemarketer, and expressed his fantasy to commit a crime just so that he’d be locked up.  Two of the young women expressed a desire to be put in a padded cell, where they wouldn’t have to worry about anything. Continue reading Lock me up, please!

I call “Blackout”

“I drank so much that I couldn’t remember what happened afterwards, except I woke up in a stranger’s bedroom surrounded by empty condom wrappers and a guy snoring loudly next to me.”

The alcoholic will often claim “blackout”.  We are supposed to take this as evidence that the drinker is compulsive and unable to control their intake.  Excessive drinking to the point of memory loss is a symptom of the disease.  After all, why would someone put themselves in that kind of situation intentionally?
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Some people will never understand

The speaker at today’s Old Timer’s meeting was a trollish man with a powerful stage presence who recounted the story of his addiction to alcohol and every other drug he could get pudgy hands on.  He currently has 35 years sobriety.

His father was an alcoholic – an ‘animal’ who abused his wife and their 9 children.  The family had a reputation in the small New England neighborhood for being ‘bad people’, and our venerable speaker was one of the baddest in the bunch.  “All I ever been was a punk.”   Continue reading Some people will never understand

Denied, denied!

Today I was turned away from 2 meetings.  The first one was an open meeting at the gay center in Hollywood.  The leader said I could not attend because I did not have a desire to stop drinking.  Of course, this is not a requirement to attend an open meeting.  But since they rented out the rooms from the center, they can reject anyone for any reason.  But the real reason is that two weeks ago I stood outside the room and handed out my flyers (under the “Activism” tab) as the people left.

So, I handed out my flyers to the latecomers and left. Continue reading Denied, denied!

Late Night Live

Tonight’s late night meeting in Weho was full of drama.  It’s a regular meeting of mine, and I enjoy it.  It’s a mixed gay-straight crowd and interesting people.  Today I met a software guy — like me!

I was assigned to read from Chapter 3: More about Alcoholism.  I love this chapter, because it says how the alcoholic is constitutionally different from normal people, and the belief that they are the same is delusional.  Of course I announce my name and that I am not an alcoholic or addict, and then proceed to read it with gusto.  “The delusion that we are like other people, or presently may be, has to be smashed.”  Of course this is pure brainwashing.   Continue reading Late Night Live